Hello

Hello everyone!

Hope everyone had a good week.

Do you think it is unhealthy to spend a lot of time thinking about a male co-worker when they are in a relationship and you are single? I can't get this guy out of my head. We flirt at work and I always end up confused as to how I feel but when i'm not at work he is all I can think of. I keep replaying the day and what was said, how it was said and trying to see if there is anything in it. It drives me mad! I work in such a small office it would be weird to date a co-worker but what if he is THE one? How would I know?

I swear today was ridiculous. He was sitting next to me dictating some changes to a document and I could feel the heat from him and it was driving me nuts. We have a laugh and tease each other but I don't think I hide me feelings very well. I'm sure he must have an idea how I feel. Maybe he just likes the attention that he gets from me and he just likes me as a friend.

I've waited a long time to meet a guy who I feel I can be myself around and who I enjoy spending time with and when I finally meet him he is in a relationship. It makes me feel sick at the thought of pushing the situation and being rejected by him and loosing what we have now. But what if he isn't happy with his life and feels the same about me and is scared of doing anything about it. What if the way he looks at me isn't what I think it is and is all in my head. What if the next time he is doing a drawing and I get the urge to pinch his bum I can't stop myself! What if the next time he is sitting next to me and we are doing typing I allow myself to stroke his hand whilst going for the computer mouse.

I think I need help!